Sunday, January 20, 2013
Another Baby Shower???
So I recently had a bad experience at a baby shower. It was after work for one of my co-workers. I should mention that most of my co-workers have children, are pregnant, or are 24 and "not ready" yet. I should also mention that at least 2 people at a time have been pregnant over the last two an a half years we have been trying. My workplace is a cause of constant annoyance and/or sadness. I thought that I was okay with the shower since I am constantly surrounded by these annoyances. Pregnancy, childbirth, and child rearing are the topic 99% of the time. I felt like since work was like a baby shower everyday, I should be fine. I was wrong. I made it through for about an hour, but then I had to get out. I made it to the car, then I lost it. It was unexpected. I haven't actually cried about any infertility stuff in a while, so I guess I was due. I just couldn't take all of the "you have to bring this thing to the hospital", and the "you won't sleep for years," and so on. The problem is that I have another one next week! I absolutely cannot go to this one! Not just because I can't take the situation again, but because this one will probably a million times worse. The girl who is pregnant did not know she was pregnant until she was 23 weeks along! She is always talking about how "traumatic" it was because she wasn't ready. I'm sure everyone at the shower will have to know all about the "funny" story of how she didn't know she was pregnant. Yeah, real funny.